Wednesday, May 8, 2013

Taking The Lord's Name In Vain

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My favorite swear word is, Goddammit. 

Goddammit!

Have you ever heard a better swear? I know that a lot of people believe that is taking the Lord's name in vain, but I don't see it that way. 

I am a Christian. I'm not ashamed to say it. I LOVE God. I thank Him for my life, my family, my blessings and my heartaches alike (admittedly I'm more enthusiastic about my blessings). I sing his praises (literally, mediocre voice and all) and I hope that when I am kind, forgiving, generous, selfless or understanding, that someone who feels lost and alone can think to themselves, "Is that, what the kind of person that believes in Christ is like? I'm like that, or I want to be like that."

When shit goes down, sometimes all I can think or say, is, "Goddammit!"

Goddammit, why am I envious? Why am I an asshole? Why I don't I feel like I'm good enough? Why do I have to struggle so much, when some people don't seem to struggle at all? Why does bad shit have to happen to good people? To defenseless creatures? To innocent children? Why is the world so fucked up? Why are there evil/greedy/sadistic/hateful/narcissistic/shitty people in the world/in charge of shit/around children? Why can't we all just get along? Why? Why? Why?

I don't know.

Man will never know the mind of God. Or so I've read.

But that doesn't mean I can't question. That doesn't mean I can't be angry. That doesn't mean I have to follow blindly. The beauty of knowing God says me,  is that I can.

God knows my heart. And therefore, I am free to speak my mind.

4 comments:

  1. Goddamn
    I love this post.

    Y'all know the story of how I'm Wiccan and Crazy Girl is a Christian, right? That we agree to disagree and never push our beliefs on each other?

    Except for this. I say goddamn a lot. A goddamn lot. And she insists I don't. Her husband will fuss at me when I do. Sometimes, I feel like asking them where my goddamn freedom of speech went? But then, I just move on and try to remember the filter. It's silly though cause they don't mind fuck or cunt.

    -The Insomniacs Dream

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    1. I did know you're a Wiccan and you n Crazy Girl agree to disagree.

      I'm like that too, not pushing my beliefs on others, only I wouldn't disagree w/you at all. I don't know if who I pray to is not infact a Goddess, or Allah, or some other deity, I only know I have Christ in my heart. And that if anyone will be lead to God by me, it will be cuz of my actions and that I praise Him.

      Anyway, you can say Goddamn around me ;)

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