Proud moments, we all have them. Today's theme is to share one.
Last weekend I ran my first non stop 60 minute run in more than 2 years. It was absolutely wonderful, and I almost didn't do it. The night before I got a terrible nights sleep. I was sleepy and was worried about a long run. The Cardio Trainer app was updating me randomly, and the news was not good.
I wrote about my slow pace a while back and how I was gonna be happy and proud of it because it was gonna get me to where I wanted to go. And it has been, after all I was about to run a 6 mile run, but I have been whittling my pace down, lately I was running 9:46 min per mile, close to my first goal of 9:30 min per mile.
Randomly the robotic voice of Cardio Trainer was letting me know that I was running 10:17, 10:05, 10:37 sure they were sprinkled sparingly in there. The mental damage was done though. Little cracks in my long awaited come back run.
I was thinking I could pick up the pace as I warmed up, but two miles in I realized that was not happening. Nuts! Mile 3 started feeling long, I started thinking about giving up on my run this week. If it couldn't be perfect I didn't have to do it. I could do it next week after a great nights sleep.
I kept running. I thought about my favorite quote. The strong, get stronger. Those four words have gotten me far. I repeated it to myself. Over and over for another another lap. Then once or twice for another lap, then not at all on the next. Before I knew it, I was on mile 4, only a quarter of my run left.
I was gonna do it, and it was almost over.
I started thinking about what I was gonna say if anyone asked me about my morning. "I just ran 6 fucking miles!" I would say.
Then I did. With an average pace of 9:56 min per mile, and I was so proud. I felt like fucking Rocky, and I'm not even kidding I raised my hands up in the air and felt invincible.
What I'm proud of is that I didn't give up. That I wont give up. That in October I'll run a half marathon. That I'll be that mom. That mom that doesn't give up.
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So proud to have you on my zombie team. You'll do the food runs, right?
ReplyDeleteHell yeah I will! The Hubby doesn't fancy me a Glen, but I'm more bad ass than he gives me credit for
DeleteCongratulations! I recently started working out & even thought I hate working out it feels so good to know you're getting your body in shape.
ReplyDeleteThanks, and don't worry the more in shape you get the less you'll hate. I love it now (running I mean) Some days when I have goals to meet I can't get our of my head to just enjoy it. The mornings that weren't new milestones for me are just fun :)
DeleteThat's awesome! You'll be ready for October before you know it!
ReplyDeleteThanx <3
DeleteHoly cow- so impressive! I can't run to the mail box :)
ReplyDeleteWith practice, you can run to the post office! ;)
DeleteGreat job, what an inspiration you are! I just ran my first 5k and need some motivation to get going again. I love that quote, "The strong, get stronger" I'll have to remember that one. Keep up the good work!
ReplyDeleteThat quote is from Scott Jurek, have you read "Born To Run" (by Christopher McDougall hope I spelled right), I highly recommend it.
DeleteCongrats on your 5k that's awesome! Read the book and you'll be wanting to run 50 no. It's THAT Inspiring.
I'm gonna share a secret w/you. My hubby put a little seed in my heart that's sprouting into a dream to spend my fortieth birthday running 40 miles.
I can't run half a block without having a stroke. Please don't leave me behind when the Zombies come.
ReplyDelete-The Insomniacs Dream
Hahaha! no need to worry, you have other valuable skills!!!
DeleteDuring a hard workout or a run that's seeming a little longer, I always tell myself just to keep going. Even if the run slows down to what looks more like a broken-down shuffle...JUST KEEP GOING. And on the nights before my Insanity workouts (I pepper them into my other workout days, so I don't do it day after day; I do it once a week, between other workouts), I dread waking up to have to do it, but during the workout, I'll tell myself--finish hard and you'll be happy about this ALL DAY. It's 40-60 minutes a day, then we feel great for the other 23 hours! I'm so proud of you for sticking to it and finishing!!!! I'm thinking of doing another half in October, just to get away from the kids and listen to my own music for 2 hours. :) Hehe--love my kids, but love my running time, too!
ReplyDeleteThat's a great attitude, I usually share, this run just meant so much to me. Those head games we play with ourselves are a bitch though.
Deletehahaha, alone time is also a great motivator ;p
That is FUCKING AWESOME! So proud of you. I just started back running and feel like a complete nut job. No where near pre-baby running. But I finished Day 1 of C25K and anytime I need motivation I'm coming back to read this post
ReplyDeleteThat is a BIG compliment. Thank you. And congrats!!! Day 1 is an exciting day :)
DeleteI wish I could learn to run and enjoy it. I can barely get out of the house to do much of anything, which makes it really hard to get back into shape. Good for you lady, keep it up!
ReplyDeleteThank you. Don't you live somewhere w/crappy weather? Living on Cali makes running an ideal sport. I love to walk too, they say walking is even better for you. I walk 45min-90min most days do you like to walk?
DeleteI am in awe. I can barely run to the bathroom. You should be proud! I love that you did the Rocky thing. I was humming the theme song for you.
ReplyDelete<3 thank you, I am
DeleteThe other ppl at the track thought I was nuts I think, or maybe they were happy for me. I'm always happy for others