Monday, February 18, 2013

Weight Watchers

Guys as you know I joined weight watchers in January.




On the 19th to be exact.

I had been mulling it over for sometime. As I just couldn't do it on my own. I took my sweet time because I just honestly couldn't afford it. I have lots of important things in my budget and the truth is that I know what to do to lose the weight. I don't NEED WW.

Except that I totally do.

There's something about having to step on the scale every week in front of an often older woman, who has lost 40, 60, 100 lbs and kept it of for 5, 10, 20 years.

If you have a shitty week and couldn't stick to the program, you're up .5 lbs or more, their genuine and understanding questions like, "what happened this week?", really help. No matter what you answer, "I couldn't resist the cake", "I binged all weekend", "We went on vacation this week", they just nod in a knowing way, smile and encourage you, "what will you do differently this week...". I just need that.

I'm super competitive, it's hard for me to sit there every week and not try to do better. A lot of people there have a lot more weight to lose than I do. They keep at it. I can too.

The meetings are great. I have a lot of food issues. I'm addicted. (kind of like with alcohol, except that I need food), WW gives me the tools I need to eat in moderation. I'm about to share a big secret with you.

I have been an unofficial member of OA (over eaters anonymous) before. I have sat in my car and participated in phone meetings before. When I was skinny. Just because you "look" normal (maybe better than "normal") doesn't even kind of mean you are. I've tried talking about it with my friends and family, but they were very dismissive about it. It's not their fault. If your not an obese cow and you look great, workout and everything, they think you're exaggerating. Or maybe that your being hard on yourself. WW gives me the tools I need to see what it is I need (including treats and indulgences with a clear line in the sand).

Don't be worried about me. Since I became pregnant something in my brain switched. I haven't binged once. Not even when faced with an emotional trigger. I have pigged out, but that's not the same thing. When you binge your not eating till it hurts, you're eating till something inside of you is full.

Don't get me wrong it hurts, but it also fills something inside of you. It quiets a voice, subdues an emotional hurt that can't be subdued in any other way. Comforts you when there's no consolation. Being a mom, somehow filled me.

Anyway back to WW. I'm four weeks in. I've lost my first 10.6 lbs. As promised here is the post to let you all know where I am. I weigh the same thing I weighed a week after Animal was born. A pound away from weighting the least I've weighed since his birth.

10 pounds away from what I think a normal person weights.

19 lbs more than I weighed when I found out I was pregnant.

32 away from my goal.

I'm not sure when to update you next. So I'm going to leave it up to the comments. I could do again in about a month, just after my 35th birthday. Or as promised when I shared this goal with you at the halfway mark, in 10 more pounds or so, I'm a super shitty math student, I'll figure it out what that number is later. I don't want to bore anyone with my weight issues. Or pat myself on the back too hard. It's a struggle and a journey I don't mind sharing or keeping to myself.

19 comments:

  1. Keep up the good work! I'm on week 3 of my diet, and didn't join WW, but you can't pat yourself on the back too hard in this case.
    Dropped by from the I Hate Mondays blog hop.

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    1. thanx, and you too!

      I've spent the morning at mechanics to do some car maintenance, barely had time to link up, I'm looking forward to seeing what others are up to

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  2. This is something I totally need. When I did the South Beach Diet, my husband, his sister, her husband, their dad, his brother and sister in law were all doing it too. it helps when it's not just you and when you have some sort of support network. I'm pulling for you Running Mama - you can do it!

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    1. Thanx! I highly encourage you try this if you need support as well. I can't tell you how much it's helped. When you reach your goal they support you through your keeping weight off (for free)

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  3. I've really considered WW because I have a complicated relationship with food. This is a very encouraging post.

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    1. I'm glad you found encouraging, I highly recommend you try it. The meetings are invaluable! Warning sometimes you have to try a couple to find the right fit (group and leader matter a lot). try it, what's the worst that can happen? Nothing changes? That's what's happening now...

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  4. Wait a sec, you want to weigh 22lbs. less than a normal person? Do you mean "normal" as in "your average obese American," or as in "healthy"?

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    1. I mean "normal" in the average overweight American. I'll weigh 147, 12 lbs over my healthy weight. My goal is to get back to 125, 10 lbs less than the max healthy weight for a woman my height.

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    2. Ah, okay. My height has a 10 pound "healthy" range. My original goal was the lowest number... Now I've settled for right smack in the middle. I'll leave the low end for the single, childless girls my height. They need it more. ;)

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  5. Congrats and keep up the good work!

    WW is a great program...it's so easy to follow, I never felt deprived and I liked the fact you could have cake or wine when you wanted...just all in moderation. I still have my points guide and have used it on and off for 15 years

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    1. Lol, once a weight watchers member, always a member ;)

      That's the funniest part. I also never feel deprived. Tonight I had pizza, dessert, and a glass of wine. But not half a pizza, a cupcake and a bottle of wine!

      Anyway glad it's still helping you now and again

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  6. I've heard a lot of people sing the praises of WW. Congrats on getting closer to your goals.

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    1. Thanx! When they help you achieve your goals it's hard not to share your allegiance with others

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  7. I did WW online one time and it was SO worth it. And then I discovered www.sparkpeople.com which is free! (or was at the time) - there is also www.myfitnesspal.com which I think is free that my mom uses.

    I think the whole key is "write down what you eat and you will be more conscience of what you eat"

    good for you for finding what works for you!

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    1. I LOVE sparklepeople! and I use fatsecrets calorie counter (like my fitness pal) they are both great and helped me maintain.

      But I'm far from maintaining right now. When I reach my goal and am a lifetime member again, it will be free (ww) this time I'm just gonna have to maintain that status, cuz I'm not paying all things $ again ;)

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  8. I am a weight watchers yo-yo. It has worked for me, I fell off the wagon and gained it back + 10, now I am on the wagon again. There are good days, and days I feel like I am starving to death. There are also days I get angry because I am not "allowed" to eat whatever I want. Stick to it. I will keep my eye on you and maybe I will feel better :-)

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    1. Good days and bad days, ain't that the truth!
      thanx for the words of encouragement, and same for you. it's not about anyone day or meal, it's about the big picture! next post about we should be mid April...

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