Thursday, December 27, 2012

TT New Year, New Me

I swore shortly after I started this blog that I would NOT make it about weight.

OKAY. OKAY. I have mentioned my post baby fat ass several times. But I haven't lingered on all the negative self talk right? or the utter dismay I feel every morning when I get dressed.

I have battled with my weight ever since I hit puberty. Finally conquering my fat ass and body issues about 5 years ago. Sometime before I turned 30 I got down to business and got seriously fit. I ran a half marathon, had killer biceps and wasn't just  a "skinny bitch", but a healthy fit bitch! I worked out 1.5-2 hrs a day 6 days a week and I was super happy. I was so proud of myself and worked hard on focusing on becoming a strong woman instead of worrying about a number on the scale, the little number on the scale was just a happy byproduct of my hard work. That and Weight Watchers did wonders for me.

Even before Animal was a twinkle in my eye I fretted and worried about what would happen to my body after having a baby. During my pregnancy I didn't let my craziness mess with me... too much. I worked out all the way to the end but as I got further along I scaled it down accordingly.

After Animal was born I was so tiered and really down on myself for not being able to be one of those moms that's running a half marathon two months after they pop their babies out. How do these bitches do it? And why can't I be one of these cunts. Sorry it's just my bitterness talking. But I just couldn't. Motherhood is the best thing that has ever happened to me, but it is kicking my ass. And it's taking my body, energy and drive for a ride.

Animal is sleeping through the night and I have new running and fitness goals, plus new motivation. I want my son to have an active role model. I want to give him the opportunity to join me and have fitness be a part of his life. Cycling, walking/hiking, swimming none of those things ever feel like exercise to me, because we did those things regularly with my parents (I still do, my dad is my running partner) and that makes it so much easier to be active, I want Animal to have that. Even though I love to sit, drink and eat garbage, I don't want that to be how Animal remembers mommy.

My very good friend Nursing Student and I decided that it's time to get back to Weight Watchers. This Year coming up is the year I get myself and my body back. In a healthy way. I fucking LOVE weight watchers, I could literally go on and on about it's virtues, but I wont as I'm trying to gain readers not lose them.

Don't worry I'm not going to start posting weekly updates, or my daily food journals. Maybe if you all are interested I'll do monthly updates. Most likely I'll wait till I make it to my first 10 lbs dropped, the halfway mark and when I hit lifetime again.

New year, New me!



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16 comments:

  1. Wait until he's old enough to leave unfinished Goldfish crackers and dinosaur nuggets lying around. Ugh.

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  2. Post about it all you want. You know you have support here.

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  3. I made an attempt to do Chalean Extreme this morning (a strength training program) and I'm doing Couch 2 5k as well what I'm saying is I understand!! My wins are 18 months old and so is this belly and back fat (back fat is the fucking DEVIL)!! You got support here and I thank Theme Thursday for helping me find you!!!
    MoodyMommi

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    1. awww, I love you guys! Good luck,let's check in on each other. Fucking back fat, it's pretty much the grossest thing!

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  4. I'd love to see your progress. Maybe it'll hold you accountable by blogging about it once per month. I can't commit to anything like that because I'll probably be munching on a sleeve of Fig Newtons come January 15th, and then punch myself in the face in my head when I'm done because I'll be so mad at me for doing it, but then I'll do it again the following week. I have to change my whole mindset...hoping it will work because I've been hogging the last three months.

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    1. Thanx, my first meeting is on the 19th at 7am. Maybe I'll post enough to motivate me and document my journey to Hot Mom. Lol, no seriously though, that's what's so fucking awesome about WW. I like to workout hard, save my points, eat a little fast food or ice cream on weekends, and drink A LOT. Only weight watchers gives me the freedom to do that.

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  5. Good Luck girl!! I know the feeling!!! I'm 6 months post baby....I can't wait to get back on my bike this Spring!! Keep us posted!!

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    1. Thank you, I will. And good luck to you too!

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  6. Do cut yourself some slack and remember that it took you nearly a year to put on all that baby weight. To lose it in LESS than a year is an incredible achievement but for most of us, unrealistic- especially if you do not want to lose muscle.

    Just don't fret and rest assured that you WILL lose the weight.

    You know how to do it.
    You have done it before.

    (And remember these words because the minute you reach your pre-baby weight, I guarantee you will become pregnant again)

    Can't wait to hear more- wish you lived in the desert so you could come to my spin class!!!

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    1. Thank you for the encouragement. I wish I could take your spin class too, I bet your a kick ass instructor!

      Also don't jinx me, I would love Animal to have a sibling, but another baby might do me in ;)

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  7. I am going to be working seriously on my weight as well! Good luck to you!

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    1. Thank you! and you too, check in we can do it together!

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