Thursday, August 15, 2013

Two Truths And A Lie

This week is another interesting Theme.

Two truths and a lie.

This could be fun, or serious. It could be an essay or a short story. It's really a meaty topic, and I'm excited to read everyone else's post.

A Phony.
I feel like a phony a lot. Like I'm living someone else's life. Someone who is just a sheep. Someone who doesn't think for themselves. I do all these things that I never thought I would do.
I'm such a consumer. Such a conformist. It's so easy to be one. I didn't mind so much before. Before I became a parent, but now that I'm responsible for another being it's hard not to be disgusted with the person I am; If I look to closely at myself. I guess I don't mind being a hypocrite if it's just me. I'll even call myself out. To be one when someone so impressionable is looking at me as a model for how to be a human. It kind of kills me.

Lazy Bones.
I can be so lazy. It takes a lot of thought and cajoling for me to get shit done. Cleaning. School. Running. Cooking. Even writing. Sometimes I'm just kind of on auto pilot and not much gets done. It's not because I'm depressed. It's just because I'm lazy.

Confident.
Looking from the outside in. You might think I'm confident. I'm friendly, and I smile a lot. I talk like I have a clue. Mostly because I do, but having a clue and actually being...anything, well that's completely different. I'm actually worried and scared more often than I let on. I worry, because I do have a clue. I know what I should be doing or what the score is in this world we live in. I may appear to have the confidence in myself to get things done, and let's be honest sometimes I do get things done. The truth is that, that is a lie and a lot is left to be done. Conquered. Changed. Moved past. Solved. Taken care of.


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    1. HA! Thanks. I wrote them how I feel them, but nice to know what others think.

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  2. #1 - I don't think you are a phony, and I don't think you think you are either. If you do, you're wrong!

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    1. thanks, I think it would be more honest to say that's how I feel sometimes.

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  3. Number 1 - I so don't think you're a phony!!!!

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    1. Thank you. Should I care everyone agrees I'm lazy?

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  4. There is only so much time in a day and I can tell you right now lazy is not a word I would ever use to define you. You will never be defined as cookie cutter and that is what I love most about you. You are 100% you and I think that is awesome. I think we can all over think things and wonder if we are keeping true to ourselves. End of the day we human and that's what makes us most beautiful.

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    1. I love your comment, not just cuz it's nice to me, well written sentiment. I appreciate you not thinking I'm a phony or lazy. ;)

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  5. #2. No way you're lazy. You run all the fucking time. I can see how you would feel the other two, just from conversations we've had and prior blogs I've read.

    When and where are you revealing?

    -The Insomniac's Dream

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    1. Right now. I forgot my laptop, and couldn't get it together on mobile...

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  6. I can't decide between 1 and 2...I think it's got to be 2 because you seem incredibly active but I don't think you're phony either.

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    1. but you do think I'm confident? You guys are making me feel pretty confident...

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  7. #1 or #2--you definitely don't seem phony, and you also dn't seem lazy!!

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    1. You missed my reveal on Facebook. The lie is number 3.
      I may or may not be a phony, it depends who you ask. My friends, family and readers don't think so, but I do. More often than not. I'm honest about what I think, but there's no follow through, so I think that makes me a phony.

      Come check out my place any time I'm not expecting company and you'll know how lazy I am.

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